Howling haven

Slithering thick like honey, red as rubies.
slash slash slash
flowing like a steaming river upon my howling haven
see the whimpering child curled into the corner, cradling herself
ruby thuds and stabs at the center of all wrenching
a float in the blood bath, bend back my head
rise softly; arched. Gripping the rusted metal handles
feel the weight descend
crash into the waves of crimson dread
pressure upon the looped whirlwind into nothingness
observe the spiraling hurricane deflate, no existence to prove
cover and bandage the satisfied wounds

delusional

No sensitivity or heart felt care
drop me, watch me tumble down the spiraling stairs.
No stairway to heaven or up we go,
stamp on my vulnerable, perpetual, weeping rose;
that once felt you loved me so.
Unchained melody; holding tight, glare into the spark of our blossoming heart.
Laughter of piercing notes we fail to hit, yet we never fail to give it a miss.
Run off with the chosen girl, i'm clearly just the over thrown- very last choice for the only girl, who truly loved me. Yes you loved me, yet I couldn't reciprocate. Now the times come to eliminate.
All this love but not enough. There is no love if there is no trust.
Have a think why, well you should know.
Nothing gets through to the delusional.

psychotic powers

Empty
What emotions can I possibly convey.
Infuriated, fooled, humiliated, yet how so typical for you to betray.
Pick and choose like you're something special.
Not about finding your self, can you even admit who you are my petal?
Pull you apart one by one, rip you off your seedy bed.
'She loves me, she loves me not.' for now the questioning planted in my head.
Another lie you yet to commit, stop playing this part you've conjured for your self.
Too late to turn back now, you're delusional; sickening for your mental health.
Reconsider these games you play, I can beat you at them all and I promise I will make you pay.

Believe i'm psycho, have you searched into your own fucking reflection and looked into what you're viewing?
Habit? Accidental? Mentally ill? Addiction worse than any dilating crystal powder you may be overdoing?
Oh hahahaha. Yet again you lie, of talcum power you don't even buy.

Some kind of magical manipulation monstrosity you cursed upon me.
My cage has been broken, though in the most cutting of ways. Finally uplifted and set to be free.
Never use your illusion of 'powers' in anyway so...
Would you like to see what I can do? Secret witches, oh yes we are real.
Not Hogwarts or ridicule advancement of that, emotions of powers that you can truly feel.
Flickering of injustice and soon it will blow.
Hover in pure darkness, no serenity, fiddle with the switch until I cast you with my corrupting circle of crow.



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inspiration

Purely about inspiration.
All at once six spun around my thoughts of ignition.
Now what?
How did I reap so much to express.
Now I feel a fail.. not much more to address.
If only that were so, I could give my mind a rest.
Craving to live my life, explore, adventure, be free.
Never to be a conformist. 'I WILL NEVER CONFORM'.
I pray I stick to that promise.
No 9-5 worries, in the daily triangle of western society.
No set guide. Or plan.
Thailand, Malaysia, America, India, China, Israel.
To live each culture.
To live to differently; never the same.
'You are never truly living life, unless you are scared taking risks'.
The fear feeds my drive.
There is no fear.
18 and ready. My life starts now.
All around the world ticket, costing a grand, 6 destinations.
Laughing at my self this very second, so much comparison to the devil, no soul selling ploys on any level.
Feathered, open my hatch door, give me a nudge and off I fly.

The scream

Stumble around in circles, don't look back.
Feel the pain more; burns, stings and cuts, careful not to fall off track.
Selfish you say, what kind of game can you play?
Hot, steaming trickles weep off your skin, puddling upon your angel touch; forming your deadly sin.
Can't stop , won't stop.
Alone. Empty in this room.
Just lay there flat, palpitates within you, feel it go boom. boom. boom.
Nothing.
Fallen, screaming.
How can I release this?
A state of fitting from head to toe. possession.
I must be dreaming.
Far from fantasy, grabbing and dragging into the fire raging hell.
Torture. Someone un-cast this sharp stabbing spell.
Free me from the feeling you to continue to compel.
Speaking in tongues, yes you have your devilish ways.
Hose the fumes out, yes smash and shatter, decline the offer from the foggy haze.
Hear the ringing of all that is left, from the piercing cry that burst out your chest.
Splashing of wellingtons, peer out the condensed window to the infant creating her memories to remember as possibly me?
Become hypnotized by the rain, yet inside, the tsunami begins to take it's stride.
Routine remains, still the same.

infinate

The heat, the stare, I feel it in your muddy emerald glare.
Insides crumbling, twisting and turning.
For your touch is the only thing i'm yearning.
The ocean; depths go on for eternity, as for my love that is the underestimating certainty.
Crystal clear, clapping, cooing and calling.
Finger prints tremble, the tingle, i'm falling.
Pulling me into your embrace, no words to describe this ecstasy you create.
Grasp in my inner self, softly rise to the pounding gate.
Warm, gentle, pressing, just hold it for this moment.
Endure the physicality of our red rose involvement.
Scratching and moaning, feel my body floating.
Connection like no other, no words to be spoken.
Our seats of emotions pound out of our chests, I love you, you love me, re write the history and solve this mess.

Ani Ohevett Otach

Ani Ohevett Otach ,
So pure, so sweet, just hush it back.
Three beliefs come one, sprinkle the heavenly glow across my four fingered gap.
Crystal clear, nothing to fear, no sound I must hear.
Alone in the deep, bubbling blue, the faint shut off cry.
I hear you beautiful beast, so happy I could die.
Exotic emeralds, for seeing fuchsia, beaming all for me, in the greatest Scarlett Eden is where I dream to be.
Brush my shriveled claws down to my waist; so effortlessly paced.
Mystical creature be-holding selected sleek scales, up lift your fore-shadowing reckoning vale.
True beauty may lie, but evil to hide underneath those polluted pebble eyes?
No feeling like this, overwhelming bliss.
First time I laid eyes upon you, that warm dry breeze wrapped me as I flew.
Ani ohevett ottach, yafah Yisrael, the only land of love and grief I knew.

Miss

Emptiness inside, wallowing and swallowing up all my pride.
Sick, broken I wonder.
Heart pounds like a dark, caved in tunnel crashing of thunder.
Yet again, I wonder...
Has this just happened, can this be real, don't tell a soul you must weep this surreal.
Like a dream you once dreamed, so fuzzy, so bare, can never be fully traced back, something was there.

LIES. LIES. LIES.
You remember most of all, the smashed heart, metallic fall.

Tip toes, tip toes now everyone...
Treading on egg shells, oh dear, so kind,
I'll throw you upon them, crack! So cruel.
Dreary, so dreary I know I will find,
you there Mr; I think I've lost my mind.
The qwuirking noise that scrapes my ears, shivers sent down to all my fears.
Light this candle upon this place, huddled together in such a warm embrace.
Hear them sing, angelic in the harmonizing echo, beaming throughout this holy falsetto.

Friend Or Foe

Why make me sink in this microscopic 'U' space from the thumb to the first, loved ones you should catch me in gold, not make me fall far worse.
Yes, such a sensitive soul, but foul you may speak.
Power addiction, controlling, what else must you seek?
Unresolved issues yes you may journey that, bite upon your speech

OUCH! Go on.. claw me like a cat.
Stuck in this doomed wallowing cave of anxious, hate and fire.
Where's that frozen, bitter, gleaming shine?
The only nightmare I dare desire. 

Fetal position; screaming.
Yearning for that paradise, that accomplished broken feeling.
Release me from the pinch only one does understand, my friend, my dear, I command; you must never let go of my hand.
Roles reversed, oh look this could be fun...
Dance! Dance! Dance! Grab this mist, drag together, were in.
Oh don't be silly as if i'd ever commit your devil biting sin.
No I'd never behave like so. The only cat who could never be my foe.
Iv'e sung my song, almost played along, but now you see, the victim is me.
The way you act if not of a cat, a friend i'd admire you see.
You jump straight first, into the devils raging curse and now you must repent or worse.
Do your time, remove your crime and beloved harmonizing we can softly call or mime.
You see the cross, no don't get cross! The angel saved us all. Now you may shine, throw your heart on the line, you absolute nothing of heavens fall. 

Metallic Desire

So startled upon the aches that strain in my heart, pulling and yielding as the days drag past.
Remember to think about the happiness people play on their part; blessing my life in so many ways, not many can say what I have today.
When you've loved and you've lost and it it rips you apart, all you can do is try to depart.
Pull your self out as you know it can't work, knowing it'll make you insanely berserk. 
You yearn to scream and shout and drag the ear splitting curse out, then crumble to the floor, yet why beg for more?
Pain you like it, but scares you at times, can I be thinking thoughts like these, am I even all that fine. 

Raise the cold bitter shine into the gloomy, crumbling sky, can you dare to shove it down.. right past the scattered line?
Where you see no more, becomes so bleak, dare to speak. Lost for words, can barely breathe. 

Cat got your tongue?

I scream to my ears. Whistling through the echoed trees.
The metallic drip you bizarrely adore. Thick and fast it scurry's; your sin. To somewhere where there seems to be an end, drizzling through it's only journey to dry and feel your skin crawling.
Sharp. Split. Quick. Slow. Queasy. Drip. Drip. Drip.

Accomplished, broken, relieved and frozen.
Written MINE, so angry, so fierce. A statement you own it, control it. So strongly you mourn this. 
The lovers once had, the heartbreak, the time. So different, still mine.

Both still linger like a moth to a flame, will I ever forget the sting the burn or even the shame.
Does love ever die, remain, or simply fade. Even existent to the human domain. 
How can we begin to define such an ambiguous matter, only your own opinions will come together and sHattER. Confusion and hatred and "Oh it doesn't matter." The only thing I crave, no silver platter. The faults, the fears and the agonizing tears.
I want it all, but with the simplicity of cheer.
Feel my heart against yours, beating in time, the hot, brisk tingling breeze sung down to my spine.
Moving together in mime, in sync, copying and creating in this perpetual time.